I’ve had a harder time feeling inspired to write since my accident. It’s like I’m in a place where I know I have so much to say, and so much more than usual churning through my mind. But it’s almost like there’s so many things bumping into each other inside of my head, that I can’t focus on one particular thing to pull out to create words on a page, or a screen as the case may be. So I feel a lot like Spongebob does in this clip, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0LAXJPlpD4k. So what else can I say here about not knowing what to say? I mean, I know I can’t be a sensation over night, or whatever. How many years was JK Rowling writing about her boy wizard on napkins before realizing it was big enough to be published? But that being said, we are our own worst critics, so when we think something is the worst thing we have ever written, who knows? It could just as easily be our greatest masterpiece. And writing, like most forms of art can be very subjective, so it may be easier to withdraw a little and observe as if we were new to that which came forth from our own brains. Besides, inspiration usually comes from somewhere outside of ourselves, so it shouldn’t be too hard to find at least a little distance between us and our creations. And it’s truly a necessary thing to be able to seek, if we are to eke out the existence that we long for. I have been brought back to the reality of the fragility of our existence, and it seems odd that a car accident jolts me in such a way, while so many new and good developments are occuring, a restoration and a re-exploration of faith in something bigger than myself, a new budding love unlike anything I have had in a while, if ever,and me reclaiming my independence, among other things. I need to live as much for myself as for the ones I love, who hold me dearer than I have managed to hold myself for a very long time. Live for love, and love life, and sing your heart out!
A few songs that truly have soul:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1GmxMTwUgs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6s0s_ZlwaOs
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOTcr9wKC-o
Enjoy!
PEace and Love for always,
Craig